I am not perfect, and I love it :)

August 15, 2008 at 4:11 am (about me)

I don’t have flawless fair skin, I don’t have long, shiny goddess like hair, I don’t have luscious pouty lips, I don’t have statuesque model like figure, I don’t have big lively eyes….but I love it

I’m not poise, I laugh like crazy, I can cry like a baby…but I love it

I can be dumb and stubborn, I’m not intelligent, I don’t have the IQ of the genious people..but I love it

I’m not altruistic, I’m not extremely kind and loving…but I love it

I have my pesky moods, I am short-tempered and I whine like a child..but I love it

Most of the time I’m clumsy, I commit mistakes, I’m careless and nonchallant…but I love it

I think I’m pretty boring, I don’t see myself standing out…but I love it

I’m not the ideal girlfriend, I’m not sweet neither romantic..but I love it

I’m not a perfect friend, not a perfect sister and not a perfect daughter, I have my share of misgivings and blames…but I love it

With the realization of my imperfections and negative attributes, I learned to embrace my individuality, to love myself and to be loved unconditionally. With all these, I am driven towards what is ideal, I can never achieve perfection, I’m only human endowed with what the Almighty has blessed me.

This only goes to show that despite of the imperfections, I am still loved, because I have people loving me because of who I am.

I only have my genuine self to offer and I knew for a fact that I am far from perfection and I can never be perfect…

Maybe there’s beauty which I cannot see…whatever it is, I’m glad there are people who are constantly seeing and appreciating it…

I am not perfect and I love it!

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feeling rusty

August 12, 2008 at 7:38 am (about me)

Recently, I’m getting worried, I think I’m developing a rusty and stagnant brain, yeah, it sounds exaggerated but I’m just concerned, I’m not reading so much lately the way I used to before, not writing, neither watching the shows which I really loved watching…

My work seems like consuming most of my time, and whenever I have the time for myself, I opt to just hang around lazily, sleep all the stress away, have my routine changed drastically? it  made me quite alarmed and I know this ain’t me at all, I have to compose myself again, I honestly hate myself right now, I don’t want to be a person who’s always sitting down, in front of the computer or doing nothing at all…

I want to be productive all the time, and obviously right now, it’s not happening, it came to the point of scolding myself and this is it, I’ll be jotting down the ways which can help myself and probably can be an effective guide to bring back my old productive self. 🙂

1) READ and WRITE
I have to make sure I read at least 2 books in a week! I have to go back to my blogging! For I know reading and writing can ease my mind.

2) CLEAN
I’ve been a slob lately, before I used to become over compulsive in terms of cleanliness, but recently I’ve been tired and lazy, but I guess I have to fight the laziness.

3) CLEANSE
I think I’ve been thinking too much, which made all things rumbled in my mind, I think I have to cleanse my mind from all the negative thoughts and anxieties which seems to dominate my thinking.

4) EAT WELL
My weight keeps going up and down the scale, I think I have to maintain a very effective diet. There were days which I feel really bloated and there were also days which I feel very hungry. It’s either I indulge myself to overeating or starving myself, I have to act with this one.

5) LAUGH
Lately, I’ve been always grumpy, I tend to become annoyed easily, I want to become nonchallant with some things, I should see things in their lighter perspectives, besides, I don’t want to develop wrinkles so I must see to it that I smile and laugh all my problems away. 🙂

That’s it for now, I think I can make do with little steps at a time, I can give myself progress, I hope I can be a better me, in the soonest time possible.

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I’m Yours by Jason Mraz

August 12, 2008 at 7:06 am (thoughts)

My latest ultimate favorite song….

I just don’t know why I’m so hooked up with the song, it’s really stuck in my head…

It’s really cute, amusing, sensibly reaching and simply a very lovely song…

Beats me if I would be dedicating this for someone, but I guess not for now :p

Well, you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but your so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks, now I’m tryin to get back
before the cool done run out I’ll be givin it my best test
and nothin’s gonna stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it’s again my turn to win some or learn some

But I won’t hesitate no more,
no more, it cannot wait
I’m yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
open up your plans and damn you’re free
look into your heart and you’ll find love love love love
listen to the music of the moment people dance and sing
We’re just one big family
And it’s our godforsaken right to be loved loved loved loved loved

So, i won’t hesitate no more,
no more, it cannot wait i’m sure
there’s no need to complicate our time is short
this is our fate
I’m yours

*scat*

I’ve been spendin’ way too long checkin’ my tongue in the mirror
and bendin’ over backwards just to try to see it clearer
But my breath fogged up the glass
and so I drew a new face and I laughed
I guess what I’d be sayin’ is there ain’t no better reason
to rid yourself of vanities and just go with the seasons
it’s what we aim to do
our name is our virtue

But I won’t hesitate no more,
no more it cannot wait
I’m yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
open up your plans and damn you’re free
look into your heart and you will find that the sky is yours

so please don’t, please don’t, please don’t,
there’s no need to complicate,
Cause our time is short
This, this, this is our fate,
I’m yours

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