October 9, 2009 at 12:37 pm (thoughts)

“Nobody knows the beautiful heights of our journey. But we do. We do. And I love every step of this journey with you.”












“When there is love in my life, there is you.”

“Being with you makes my life MORE special to me.”

“The one I love is all I need…The one I love is you.”


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down to pieces…

August 23, 2009 at 2:16 am (thoughts)

Life is screwing more, everything’s going fine, until some things just keep getting into my nerves and affecting my system, I can no longer endure the struggle of dragging myself to do things because I “have” to do them and not because I “want” to do them….

There’s a universal difference of “have to” and “want to” and it awfully annoys me to be stuck in situations wherein I have no choice but to do what I “ought” to do…

I have no drive, no passion, no will power to do well and excel. I used to be the kind of person who hates complacency, but here I am discovering my new stagnant, unmoved and nonchalant being, waiting for some things to end. I’m so young to see everything in front of me flushing down the drain; I’m clueless how to continue and how to make things work.

I’m just so sad. I want to be great, I want to be successful, but how the hell am I going to be such if things keeps me from being one. This has been one of my most depressing phases of life, and I seriously wish for its end, before things get totally dead worst.

I want to sleep in infinite slumber. Never have to wake up again in the scrutiny of cruel happenings.

I want to see a happy me, a genuinely happy me, which I have not seen for quite some time.

I want to be of worth again.

This feeling makes me neglect the beauty of other things, I totally appreciate the people in my life who constantly push me, and I loathe those who keep pulling me down.

I’m stuck in the middle of balance. I’m in a serious major problem. I am starting to hate life but at the same time I love it, and why can’t it just be the latter. I am just simply fed up with the misfires.

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random thoughts (5)

June 20, 2009 at 2:38 pm (thoughts)


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June 17, 2009 at 12:49 pm (thoughts)

gleiza-0032_028 Allow me to quote this song, back on the  days when I thought I was a princess waiting for my prince charming…I have kept this song in my mind, curious and hoping as to whom I would dedicate it to…who would have thought it would take years for me to recall this song because I have found my one…sweet love 🙂


The first time I saw you
You were walking
Down the beach at night
With the waves bowing down to you
In the bright moon light
Well, it must have been a signal
From up above
Cause deep in my heart
I knew that it was love
And it turns me on like
when the sun goes down
And the moon comes up
Sweet, sweet love like no other man
Has been touched
By this simple process of… love
I wish there was a way to show you
My love is real
But Webster hasn’t found the words
to express how I feel
Well, just like a river
Needs the rain to flow
You’ve warmed a heart
That once was cold, with your love
And it turns me on like
when the sun goes down
And the moon comes up
Sweet, sweet love like no other man
Has been touched
By this simple process of… love

another cheesy blog for you 🙂

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May 10, 2009 at 1:30 pm (thoughts)

Mother’s day is one of the most important dates in my calendar, though I’m never vocal to say how much I am grateful to my mom,  this day reminds me how lucky I am to have a mother like her….

I admire all the mothers whom I knew in my life, if I would become a mother myself in the future, I know I’ll be a good one, because I will see to it that I will imbibe motherhood from mom and lola….


I know I’m never a good daughter, I am stubborn and hard headed, I do things and decide on my own.

I completely feel confident and ardent to stand on my own, I seek independence, I intend to be away, I want to achieve my dreams and have the so-called “good life”.

I may sound selfish but I want you to know that you are my inspiration, my drive and my will power to pursue my dreams.

I thank you for being a cool mom, you may never be sweet and affectionate but you never fail to show your love and concern to us.

I may hate you for being such a nagger and being pushy but those won’t matter considering the numerous things I love about you.

Give me just little time mommy, I promise 2 to 3 years from now, I will give you all the things we dreamed of. I will work things out for us.

I thank God for giving me such a wonderful and crazy mom, if I would be granted to have another life, I would like you to become my mom again in a heartbeat.

Happy Mother’s Day!!!

I love you and I will always do….

This one’s for you mommy…

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a love letter

April 26, 2009 at 8:52 am (thoughts)

I just wanna say how much I love you, in a short span of time, there are so many things which I have come to love about you. You never fail to make me happy, you never fail to boost my confidence when I’m feeling down and most of all you never fail to make me feel so special.

I can never explain my happiness, from you simple texts to your adult-like reminders, when you call me “mahal ko”, when you look into my eyes and tell me you love me. When you kiss me during the least time that I expected, when you grab my hand to kiss or to hold it tight and when you hug me with all your might. I feel all the mixed emotions of being loved, feeling special and overjoyed.

I bet you know how I am so in love with your beaming smile, that’s what I remembered the most when I first met you, and I knew from that time that your someone different. And definitely you are different, since I ended up loving you, you are one true beautiful person, behind your cute face and aura, is your wonderful and genuine persona, you’re full of love and dreams. You have a lot to share and thank you for sharing.

Though I kid you “iyakin” when you cried the night I said yes, that time had proven me that I am a woman of worth, that there is a special guy who have seen more of me beyond what others can see.

I will always be thankful to God for bringing you into my life. Thank you for being there, for making me happy, for loving me, for caring for me, thank you for being proud of me. Thank you for making me a better me.

You know I never want to make promises, but rest assured that I am yours till you want me to, the same way you said that you are mine. You’re my first and I would love you to be my last.

I will always fear the day when we have to part, I know that it will be very difficult, but I will be willing to go all through that knowing that you will wait for me.

We’re only together for a couple of months but it seems that I have you in the longest time around, I am always looking forward to spending more beautiful days with you.

Nothing special today, I just have to write this down before my heart burst from too much happiness. These are only a few reasons and I still have more than a million reasons to say why I love you.

This cheesy blog goes for you……Bryan 🙂

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April 13, 2009 at 2:17 am (thoughts)

I spent Easter Sunday in the office, I was suppose to be sulking and complaining again, but then again, thank God I did not, and thanks to my good friend whom I had a nice YM chat with, she really had me enlightened and made me realize certain things, so there the chat went on, how I wished I have saved it, but unfortunately my jerky foot of mine nudge the computer plug and poof a restart and I lost everything haha but then again I have instilled in my mind all that she said, afterward, as I was starting to get bored again, I landed on “Desiderata”, way back in school I simply read it and this time reading it again had me digest it’s beauty, that all things which I desire should all be geared to being happy.

Below is the poem, read it with the heart…. cheers 🙂


Go placidly amid the noise and haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence.

As far as possible, without surrender, be on good terms with all persons. Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even to the dull and the ignorant, they too have their story. Avoid loud and aggressive persons, they are vexations to the spirit.

If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain and bitter; for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself. Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans. Keep interested in your own career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.

Exercise caution in your business affairs, for the world is full of trickery. But let this not blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals, and everywhere life is full of heroism. Be yourself. Especially, do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love, for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment it is perennial as the grass.

Take kindly to the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth. Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. But do not distress yourself with imaginings. Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.

Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be, and whatever your labors and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life, keep peace in your soul.

With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world.

Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.

Max Ehrmann c.1920

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holy week_ _ _ _ crosswalk

April 9, 2009 at 5:51 am (thoughts)

emo1 Here I am stuck either at home or in the office, I feel too    pathetic and way too jaded…

I envy the people who get to go out of town and enjoy the long weekend rest, many people are probably basking in the beach, having a blast…

Oh well, I still have less than a year of enduring this terrible work schedule,….I’m starting to whine again…. can’t help it…

I guess my situation is my cross…I wouldn’t want to be somber on this since I know this is less of a bigger deal compared to some concerns of other people…I can still manage to bear this and get by…

Shalalala,I think I’m in my pesky mood swings again, tired, bored, agitated, frustrated, I’m in need of a definite boost….

Good thing I opened my email, and happened to go over this message:

Whatever your cross,
whatever your pain,
there will always be sunshine, after the rain….
Perhaps you may stumble, perhaps even fall;
But God’s always ready, to answer your call….
He knows every heartache, sees every tear,
a word from His lips, can calm every fear…
Your sorrows may linger, throughout the night,
But suddenly vanish, by dawn’s early light…
The Savior is waiting, somewhere above,
to give you His grace, and send you His love.

Seems that it’s never too late to reflect, I’m always thankful for my blessings, and even though I whine and I sigh with my crosses, I’m 100% confident that I can get through it all…why would I complain and give up, when Jesus Himself didn’t… make sense right? 🙂

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random thoughts (1)

March 20, 2009 at 5:48 pm (thoughts)

In my past few blogs, I have always mentioned that I do not know what am I going to do in the next three or so years…I came to the point of being quite alarmed, but recently I have realized that there’s no point of worrying, especially knowing that it won’t amount to anything in the end….

I think and I’m positive enough that something beautiful awaits me, I wholeheardtedly believe that I will have my pot of gold in the end of my rainbow…

I’m armed enough to push through, I have myself and my dear ones to motivate me to look forward, for I know in my heart that someday, I’m gonna find my place under the sun….and that’s the beauty of it…

carpe diem!!!


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March 17, 2009 at 5:05 pm (thoughts)

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